sweetness of my lives

A new me

2009-09-14T10:40:00.000+09:30

Do u believe that people change??
well.. yes i do.. change in feelings, change in ideas, change in opinions.. i believe it's because i'm getting more and more mature.. which is a good thing..
and i finally know what my goals in my life are..and i'm so glad that i'm working towards them now.. Welcome my future ^^

♥

2007-05-01T00:16:00.002+09:30

♥..♥♥..♥♥..♥♥..♥♥..♥♥..♥♥..♥♥..♥♥..♥♥..♥♥..♥♥

What a girl said to a guy, and what guy's thinking of..

THIS IS WHAT A GIRL TOLD A GUY:

If you see me walking the road with someone else,
It's not because I like his accompany...

Its because you're not brave enough to walk
beside me.

If you hear me talking about him all the
time
Its not because he pleases me

Its because you're too deaf to hear my heartbeat

If you feel me falling with someone new
Its not because I love him..

But because you're not there to catch me fall

If you feel lost, I too am nowhere
I too don't know where the road is going

Are we gonna cross each other's path
Or just completely turn around?..

Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound

Don't let me walk with him,
It's you I want to walk with..

Don't let me talk of him,
it's you I want to talk with..

Don't let me fall for him,
It's you I want to fall in love with..

"HOW DID THE GUY REPLY?"

When you thought I wasn't brave enough to
walk beside you

I was behind you every step of the way

Still filled with awe because of the
beauty that stand before me

When you thought I was too deaf to hear
your heartbeat

I didn't want to assume anything
And I was afraid to lose our friendship

When you thought I wasn't there to catch
you, It was because you never gave me the
chance

You never reached the bottom,
you've already grabbed a branch

If you feel like you are nowhere,
I too am lost

I too don't know where the road is going
Are we just going to turn around,
Or are we gonna cross each other's path?

Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound?

Don't let me walk alone
I want to walk by your side

Don't let me talk of something else
It's you I want to talk with

Don't let me fall for someone else
It's you I want to fall in love with.

Wallets

2007-05-01T00:14:00.002+09:30

Someone said... "Wallets are a lot like girls. You really have to take good care of, because if you won't, something might happen"...

I know what he means. I just lost a wallet, and I just lost a girl.
You know, it's the exact same thing.
One day, you just realize it's gone.
You try to look for it everywhere, even going back to the places where you could have lost it.
You think, and you think hard, only to come upon a grim realization: it's really gone.
Of course, you can hold on to some hope.
After all, there have been some very, very lucky (blessed?) people who get it back.

Perhaps you could become one of those people.
You sit home and you hope that someone would call, and that you would get it back.
But then, some time passes, and you realize that it's still gone, and you realize that it's time to let go.
The first few days, you turn to your friends for support.
Some tell you you'll be ok, some tell you that it was your fault
and that you should have been more careful,
and some tell you about their own experiences.
They give you all sorts of advice, none you haven't heard before.

You then go out to find a new wallet, only to realize that you don't really want a new one.
You want the old one that you lost.
No, you don't want all these better-looking wallets, you want yours,
because of how comfortable it is, because of all the cards and pictures and other stuff in it.
You go out and carry on without a wallet, keeping your money in your pocket instead.
You throw away stuff that you would have held on to if you had your old wallet.
And then, finally, you find a new wallet you like and settle in.
You then start filling your new wallet, little by little.
It still doesn't feel as comfortable as the old one, but it's getting there.

Then you start putting in cards and pictures and other important stuff in the wallet.
Soon enough, there's as much stuff in your new wallet as the old one.
And then, after some time, you feel as comfortable with your new wallet.
And then you realize that you've almost forgotten you ever had your old wallet.
Sure, you still remember most of the stuff you lost on that wallet.
But then again, you don't remember the feeling of hurt that you felt when you lost it.

That's because that wallet you lost is no longer your wallet.
You're no longer holding on.
This new wallet you're holding, it has all the important cards and pictures and stuff that you need.
This is your wallet.
And this time, you tell yourself, you're never losing this one.

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Girl

2007-05-01T00:12:00.002+09:30

If a girl cries in front of you,
it means that she couldnt take it anymore.
If you take her hand,
she would stay with you for the rest of your life.
If you let her go,
she couldnt go back to being herself anymore.

A girl wont cry easily..
except in front of the person whom she love the
most,
she becomes weak.

A girl wont cry easily..
only when she love you the most,
she put down her ego.

Guys..
if a girl cries because of you,
please hold her hands firmly.
She's the one who would stay with you for the rest
of your life.

Guys..
if a girl cries because of you,
please dont give her up.
Maybe because of your decision, you ruin her life.

When she cry right infront of you,
when she cry because of you..
Look into her eyes,
can you see and feel the pain and hurt she's
feeling?
Think.
Which other girl have cried with pure sincerity,
infront of you,
and because of you?

She cry not because she is weak,
she cry not because she want sympathy or pity,
she cry..
because crying silently is no longer possible.
The pain, hurt and agony have become too big a
burden to be kept inside.

Guys..
Think about it.
If a girl cry her heart out to you and all because of
you,
it's time to look back on what you have done,
Only you will know the answer to it.

Do consider it.
Because one day..
It may be too late for regrets,
it may be too late to say "i'm sorry".

To my friends...
Ponder this message seriously.
Dont do this to a girl,
you may regret for the rest of your life.
Maybe in your life...
she's the only one that love YOU the most.
Remember this lesson.

Are you??

2007-05-01T00:09:00.002+09:30

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing, And your voice caught within your chest?

It isn't Love, it's Like.

You can't keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right?

It isn't Love, it's Lust.

Are you proud, and eager to show them off?

It isn't Love, it's Luck.

Do you want them because you know they're there?

It isn't Love, it's Loneliness.

Are you there because it's what everyone wants?

It isn't Love, it's Loyalty.

Do you stay for their confessions of Love, because you don't want to hurt them?

It isn't Love, it's Pity.

Are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand?

It isn't Love, it's being Unconfident.

Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat?

It isn't Love, it's Infatuation.

Do you pardon their faults because you care about them?

It isn't Love, it's Friendship.

Do you tell them every day they are the only one you think of?

It isn't Love, it's a Lie.

Are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake?

It isn't Love, it's Charity.

Does your heart ache and break when they're sad?

Then it's Love.

Are you attracted to others, but stay with them faithfully without regret?

Then it's Love.

Do you accept their faults because they're a part of who they are?

Then it's Love.

Do you cry for their pain, even when they're strong?

Then it's Love.

Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?

Then it's Love.

But do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and elation pulls you close and holds you?

Then it's Love.

Would you give them your heart, your life, your death?

Then it's Love.

aBout LoVe

2007-04-30T23:32:00.000+09:30

I found this interesting post in ppl's blog..i know it's in Chinese..but take time reading this..it's really very meaningful^^

你发觉了吗？爱的感觉总是在一开始时甜蜜，
总觉得多了一个人陪，多了一个人帮你分担，你
终于不再孤单了，因为至少有一个人想着你、
恋着你，只要能在一起就是好的。

但是慢慢地，随着认识的加深，你开始发现了
对方的缺点，于是问题一个接一个出现，你开
始烦、累，甚至想要逃避，有人说爱情就像捡
石，总想捡到一个适合自己的，但是你又如何
知道什么时候能够捡到呢？她适合你，那你又
适合她吗？

其实，爱情应该像磨石子儿，或许刚捡到的时
候，你不是那么满意，但是请记住，人是有弹
性的，很多事情是可以改变的，只要你有心，
有勇气，与其到处去捡未知的石头，还不如将
自己已经拥有的石头磨亮磨光，你开始磨了
吗？很多人以为，是因为感情淡了，人才会变
得懒惰，其实人是先被惰性征服，感惰才慢慢
变淡的。

在某个聚餐的场合，有人提议多吃点虾对身体
好，这时候有个中年男人忽然说：“十年前，当
我老婆还是我女朋友的时候，她说要吃十只
虾，我就剥二十只给她。现在，如果她要我帮
她剥虾壳，简直就是开玩笑，我连帮她夹菜都
没兴趣了，还剥虾壳呢。”

难怪越来越多的人只想谈一辈子恋爱，却迟迟
不肯走入婚姻。因为，婚姻容易让人变得懒惰。

如果每个人都懒得讲话，懒得倾听，懒得制造
惊喜，懒得温柔体贴，那么夫妻之间，又怎么
会不渐行渐远渐无声呢？所以请记住，有活力
的爱情是需要适度殷勤来灌溉的，谈恋爱，更是
不可以偷懒的。

(Bad example)
有一对情侣，相约下班后去用餐，逛街，可是
女孩因为公司会议延误了，当她冒雨赶到时候
已经迟到了30多分钟，她男朋友很不高兴地
说：“你每次都这样，现在我什么心情也没了，
我以后再也不会等你了！”刹那间，女孩的心
决堤崩溃了，她在想：或许，他们再也没有未来
了。

(Gd example)
同样，在同一个地点，另一对情侣也面临同样
的处境，女孩赶到的时候也迟到了半个钟头，
她的男朋友说：“我想你一定忙坏了吧？”接着
他为女孩拭去脸上的雨水，并且脱去外套披在
女孩身上，此刻，女孩流泪却是温馨幸福
的。

你体会到了吗？其实爱恨往往只在我们的一念
之间！爱不仅要懂得宽容更要及时，很多事可
能只是在于你心境的转变罢了。如果有个人爱
上你，而你也觉得他不错，那并不代表你会选
择他。

我们总说：“我要找一个很爱很爱的人，才会谈
恋爱。”但是当对方问你，怎样才算是很爱很爱
的时候，你却无法回答他，因为你自己也不知
道。

没错，我们总是以为，我们会找到一个自己很
爱很爱的人。可是后来，当我们猛然回首，才发
觉自己曾经多么天真。假如从来没有开始，你
怎么知道自己会不会很爱很爱那个人呢？其
实，很爱很爱的感觉，是要在一起经历了许多
事情之后才会发现的。每个人都希望找到自己
心目中百分之百的伴侣，但是你有没有想过，
在你身边早有人对你默默付出很久了，只是你
没有发觉而已。

所以，还是仔细看看身边的人吧，他或许已经
等你很久了。当你爱一个人的时候，爱到八分
绝对刚刚好。所有的期待和希望都只有七八
分，剩下两三分用来爱自己。如果你还继续爱
得更多，很可能给对方造成沉重的压力，让彼
此喘不过气来，完全丧失了爱情的乐趣。

所以请记住，喝酒不要超过六分醉，吃饭不要
超过七分饱，爱一个人不要超过八分。如果你
正在为爱迷惘，

下面这段话或许可以给你一些启示：

爱一个人，要了解也要开解；
要道歉也要道谢；
要认错也要改错；
要体贴也要体谅；
是接受而不是忍受；
是宽容而不是纵容；
是支持而不是支配；
是慰问而不是质问；
是倾诉而不是控诉；
是难忘而不是遗忘；
是彼此交流而不是凡事交代；
是为对方默默祈求而不向对方诸多要求。
可以浪漫，但不要浪费，
不要随便牵手，更不要随便放手.

BeLieVe it Or NoT?

2007-04-29T23:54:00.000+09:30

When a guy is quiet,
He's listening to you...

When a guy is not arguing,
He realizes he's wrong

When a guy says, "I'm fine," after a few
minutes,
he means it

When a guy stares at you,
he thinks you're the most beautiful thing
in
the
world

When you're laying your head on a guy's
chest
he has the world

When a guy calls you everyday
he is in love

When a (good) guy say he loves you
he means it

When a guy says he can't live without you
he's with you till your done

When a guy says, "I miss you,"
he misses you more than you could have
ever
missed
him or anything else

Girl facts:

When a girl is quiet,
millions of things are running through her
mind.

When a girl is not arguing,
she is thinking deeply.

When a girl looks at you with eyes full of
questions,
she is wondering how long you will be
around.

When a girl answers, "I'm fine," after a few
seconds,
she is not at all fine.

When a girl stares at you,
she is wondering why you are so
wonderful.

When a girl lays on your chest,
she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a girl calls you everyday,
she is seeking for your attention.

When a girl wants to see you everyday,
she wants to be pampered.

When a girl says, "I'll love you forever,"
she means it.

When a girl says that she can't live without
you,
she has made up her mind that you are
her
future.

When a girl says, "I miss you,"
no one in this world can miss you more
than that

Paris and Italy trip

2007-04-18T04:03:00.001+09:30

Hallo everyone..i'm back to writing my blog..hehe=)
anyway, i'm just back from my trip to Italy and Paris..
i Love paris very much.. Italy is very dangerous..hehe=)
anyway, my mum's here in Germany too..

2006-12-22T07:43:00.000+09:30

Hi everyone..
i've been abandoning my blog..hehe..
anyway.. just some updates..
i just bought a new Nokia HP N73..it's red in colour..so nice neh..

CoLd weatHer

2006-10-14T18:58:00.001+09:30

i'm having holidays now...from 16th October to 1st November..cool yeah..hehe.. i really miss my family and friends in Indonesia and Singapore...especially him..wish that time will travel faster so that it's time for me to go back..hehe..niwae, the weather's here super cold..i'm looking forward to winter, but i'm scared of cold, so must prepare lots of thick jackets. I wish that all my beloved friends out there healthy and happy=)

in Germany

2006-09-15T22:48:00.001+09:30

now in germany..reached here on 10th september..oh well..miss my family soo badly.. especially him..btw, i celebrated my birthday with him and my lovely 2 younger brothers..i enjoyed my birthday..thanks for making my big day so special=) and of course, thanks for the surprise u gave me=) hehe..

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2006-06-11T19:09:00.000+09:30

Stomach pains

2006-05-24T20:28:00.000+09:30

Today our class and the juniors went to this place to have a street soccer match.. the seniors won!! yeah=) hehe.. I met my guy and suddenly, i have this bad stomachache.. can't walk properly. so we went to Plasa Senayan to eat.. the pain is still there.. after that the guys went to play arcade. My stomach really hurt, my brother has leg pain, and the other friend of mine didn't really know how to drive my car.. so no choice, i have to drive back with stomachache.. so suffering leh..haiz.. luckily my guy soothes me down..hehe.. hen kao xing arh!!
next time must eat at proper time, so that i won't have stomach pains anymore...

Da Vinci Code

2006-05-22T22:13:00.001+09:30

Today's my friends birthday... She invited the whole class to watch "The Da Vinci Code" together.. we started class really early today so that we can watch the movie earlier.hehe.. Driving early in the morning is so nice..no traffic jam..hehe.. the most i can drive up to 120km/h..more than that the car will shake..hehe.. anyway, after class, we went to "Setiabudi" and bought the movie tickets..someone gave me this very elegant looking table lamp.. so cute..got water and 2 heart-shape with arrow floating inside..

By the way, my class teacher was also invited.. (my teacher's cool or what?) hehee..
We sat at the side, so after the movie ended, some of us had neck pains..haha.. the movie is nice..great plot..nice monuments.. Our stomachs grumbled, so we went to eat. I bought 2 portions for myself.. fried rice and cap chai rice.. my teacher even laugh at me..haha..so funny.. =)

2006-05-13T23:04:00.000+09:30

Been very busy lately, thus no time for me to come online and update my blog..fungae growing liao...lol.. aniway, today is Goethe's open house.. our class perform on stage today. In the morning, i fetch my teacher..but i was late..oopss..haha..

I played the piano, one of my friends sing, 2 of my guy friends make-up, wear wig, wear girl clothes and they transform themself to become female..hehe..
then they dance and act in rhythm with the music.. so funny.. the audiences laughed.. after the performance, my guy, my bro and me went to service my car's wiper..haha.. coz it's very hard for me to drive with a spoiled wiper..haha.. soon after, we returned to Goethe to catch the theatre performance :"Emil and the detektive". quite a nice performance.. then we went home feeling lethargic yet happy=)

Medan

2006-04-03T23:57:00.000+09:30

i got a new haircut yesterday and i am really satisfied..my long hair now become shoulder length..a bid sad..but nevermind.. my friends said i looked great with this haircut..hehe=).. by the way, i'm leaving for Medan tomorrow with mum, bro, auntie and cousin.so i'm goin to "ponteng" my class for a few days..must wake up at 3, but i'm still awake now..hehe..bon voyage=)

ps:Fir, i can't tag my tagboard.. i think my pop-up was blocked..how ar? hehe.. want to reply also cannot..

Amusement park

2006-03-30T22:30:00.001+09:30

i went to amusement park with my friend and him..so happy!! i was elated and excited, coz finally my dream came true..it's like the Jay Chou's "Yuan You Hui" song.. so magical..hehe.. But there's a crowd there as it's a public holiday..anyway, i was really irritated by some people there coz they cut our queue.. so we "diao" them, then he also scold them.. so they didn't dare to cut le..huh.. they spoil our mood..haiz..then we took the water ride, and i am the wettest of them all.. but it's really fun..luckily i brought shirts to change..we took nearly all of the scary rides..we stand and wave our hands up in 1 of the rides..haha..we ate a lot and of course not forgetting candy floss..my favourite..hehe.. we were in there since the amusement park open till it closes,hahaha...then after that we went to the nearest beach and took a stroll while eating ice-cream..Really tired and dizzy from all the rides, but it's really worth it=)

you~

2006-03-23T18:12:00.000+09:30

The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or touched but are felt in the heart...

That's how i feel when i'm with u~

go Bandung

2006-03-03T08:51:00.000+09:30

today me and my friends will go to bandung.. will update more when i come back.. the kalimantan trip havent finish updating..huehe.. ciao..

2nd Day

2006-02-27T22:47:00.000+09:30

We woke up early and ate the breakfast buffet.. I ate super-duper lots.. like a pig like that.. hehe.. really a lot..anyway after that we went to the official opening event.. at noon, we went to visit the "DAYAK" place.. Their great-great grandparents lived on the mountains last time.. and they like the skins of animals.. and they usually hang themon top of thie roofs.. eww..disgusting.. i was a few house with skins hanging.. eeww..i was expecting the people there not to wear normal clothes..
i was expecting something like wearing a covering only at their private parts.. but i
was totally wrong..hehe.. all of them wear normal clothes.. only some people wear the
traditional clothes for money-making photo-taking purposes.. huh..

they performed their traditional dance for us.. huh.. so boring.. their music is so
monotone.. but overall it's a good effort.. all our handphone don't have reception there,so if anything happen to us, nobody will help us.. i kinda freaked out with the peeps there.. after that we went to the hotel owner's house.. super damn big.. we ate durians..

Kalimantan

2006-02-26T22:44:00.000+09:30

Today my mum, dad, My brother and me went to Kalimantan, Samarinda because of my parent's friends official opening of a building..a group of 40 of us took a 2-hour plane to balikpapan

and then proceed our 2 hour journey with a chartered bus compliments from the hotel..we knew the owner of the Hotel.. When we reach the hotel, we were greeted bythe lion-dance troupe with a red- carpet.. many people gathered at the left and right hand corner of the carpet to shake hands with us.. and got lots of reporters and cameras.. OMG..
i didn't know that this was such a big event.. and we're actually an important
visitor..we were all given orange juice and a towel to relax ourself..then we proceed
to our room to rest for the next day.. i share a room with my brother.. i really like
the atmosphere of the hotel.. it's very comfortable..hehe..=)

Just for YOU

2006-02-14T22:22:00.000+09:30

Just for YOU..

All I ever wanted was to be part of your heart,
And for us to be together, to never be apart.

No one else in the world can even compare,
You're perfect and so is this love that we share.

We have so much more than I ever thought we would,
I love you more than I ever thought I could.

I promise to give you all I have to give,
I'll do anything for you as long as I live.

In your eyes I see our present, our future and past,
By the way you look at me I know we will last.

I hope that one day you'll come to realize,
How perfect you are when seen through my eyes.

Ice-skating

2006-01-24T23:00:00.001+09:30

MY ZODIAC FOR TODAY...

Today you can get great pleasure and comfort from spending time at home with a loved one. Even if you don't do much, just being in one another's presence will be healing for you. You are loved.

You may do well to stay at home today and spend some happy, quality moments with loved ones. It can be a great time to cook a delicious meal and let it all hang out. Have fun.

It is likely you will entertain visitors from a faraway place in your home now. You are mentally and emotionally stimulated by your environment today and your affairs will progress successfully.

Harmony reigns on the domestic front now. Enjoy the company of loved ones and close friends, perhaps by hosting a party or other event that brings everyone together.

today go ice-skating in Taman Anggrek Mall with my brother, and my friend, Zack from singapore..(so the prediction of the Zodiac is true..about the visitor from a faraway place..)he's here for a few days.. very fun..so happy=) i feel very carefree when i skate..as if all my troubles and worries gone..hehe=) after ice-skate, drove Zack back to his hotel, after that we proceed home, but we were lost in an unfamiliar place..it's scary yet fun in a way..hehe..end up reach home at 10.30pm.. Overall, today is tiring, but exciting, enjoyable..it's all worth it=)

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2006-01-17T21:01:00.000+09:30

Back to reality....

Puncak

2005-12-16T17:05:00.000+09:30

went to puncak with my friends for 4 days.. it was really fun.. we're enjoying ourselves the whole time.. the guys playing guitar, exploring to Safari park.. ride on the ghost train.. play in the rain..(my favourite) swimming..shopping.. cooking..getting lost(all because of rio), watching stupid DVDs..(all the stupid guys'ideas)photo-taking.. laughing.. friends bonding.. sleeping together.. playing cards.. play station.. singing.. the truth session.. confessions..lots of memories.. can't bear to leave such great friends..

Thanks my lovely friends..

2005-11-29T20:38:00.001+09:30

Told Dad about the incident yesterday..he was really worried, and he asks me to be careful.. I was dumbfounded when Putu told me in skul today that he and his friends(1 of them is a military..) found the guy yesterday..and they beat him up..he was fired from his job as a taxi-driver..OMG..it's really that serious..1 mistake u made, and that's it..it ruined your life forever.. I felt pity for the taxi-driver because he'd lost his job, and therefore no more money earned, but on the other hand, i'm satisfied and happy that he got what he deserved.. The taxi that i took was the most reliable taxi in Jakarta..i won't trust Taxis now..Thanks Fani, Icha, Nia, Uthie, Via, and the guys for giving me support..hehe=)

Never in my life would i imagined Putu would go this far to help me...i'm so grateful for his kind act..=) From today onwards, Rio will send me right at my doorstep, if he can't Putu will. Aiyo..i fell that i'm so troublesome...i told them it's alright, i can take care of myself, but they insist..My friends are all worried about me here...so Happy and Blessed to have friends like them..=) anyway, Franz is still sick today, didn't go skul..i hope he'll recover soon..coz it's strange without him in class.

I'm still shock that Putu and his friends go and find the guy and beat him up, and then he's fired..it's just so hard to believe..but yeah, it's true..it really did happen..I hope none of this thing would happen to me again..oh ya, i haven't told my mum about this..coz she's in Genting with my brothers..so good..i'm jealous=( Aniway, i'm relieved that this thing is over..=)

Terrified me..

2005-11-28T22:27:00.000+09:30

I had the most scariest experience today...never in my life did i imagine i would be experiencing this scary incident..After skul we went to the Mediothek to study, it's sort of like a computer lab. Franz was sick, so we went home early..he's so poor thing..then Rio drop me at the mall near my house. I walked to the taxi stand. There's thisWoman standing there opening the taxi door for you.When she wanted to open the door for me,the door's stuck, can't be opened..the driver had to go out and open it..then the 1st thing he said to me when i got in was:"Are you alone?" well, obviously i was alone..what a strange thing to ask. Then he asks me whether i'm married and all sorts of questions that taxi drivers aren't suppose to ask. I got suspicious..i got a bad feeling about this guy..
i quickly sms Rio the name and ID number of that Taxi in case something happens to me...He replied by telling me to get down ASAP, but i didn't..and somemore the driver kept on eyeing my every movement with the rearview mirror..so uncomfortable.. when reaching my house,i directed him to a place near my house whereby cars can't go in..got a big gate there, only pedestrians can walk through...Coz i don't want him to stop right in front of my house.. it's the only resort..then he asked:"Where's your house?" i said :"Walking from here is faster"
i stretch my hand to give him the money. But he suddenly grabbed my hand with force and kissed my hand..eeewwww...i'm so shocked.and terrified..i used my strength to pull my hand, but to no avail..that guy's a strong chap. I sat on the right, he grabbed my right hand, so i tried to use my left hand and opened the door, but it won't budge..suddenly i remember that the door's stuck
earlier in the mall too!! SHIT!!!He asked my name, and then asked where i live, and wanted to kiss my hand again..eeeewwwww.YUCKS!!!!!!!!!I tried to open the door again, but no use.. So i use the side of my body and push the car's door..FINALLY...it OPENED!! i quickly pulled my hand and ran
out from there..saw 2 motorcyclists outside..i quickly told them what happened. they tried to catch the driver, but he quickly sped away.i'm so super SHOCKED..it happened so quickly..i called Rio and Franz..they were worried about me but were relieve that i'm alright...I cried coz i'm happy that i was safe..
..i called Fani and Putu which were still in skul.Fani was very worried about me..Putu was very angry..he said he wanted to help me report the guy's unmoral act. as of now, i'm still terrified..

Harry Potter

2005-11-25T21:06:00.001+09:30

Today half of the class went to watch Harry Potter and the goblet of fire..truthfully, i hate Harry Potter..i never watched the 1st, 2nd and 3rd movie..coz i only watch Lord Of The Ring.huh?what's the connection?hhahaha...but i went to watch with them anyway..I proof myself WRONG..that movie was a blast..i really LOVE it very much.. The plot's super..The action's fantastic, not to mention got a lot of hunks there..hehez..I LOVE HARRY POTTER now..huehehe..

at nite dad brought me to JW MARRIOTT hotel to eat. It's so traffic jam, we took 2 hours to get there..normally took less than 50 minutes..Too many cars here..haiz. It's the same hotel that was bombed years ago..hehe.
Habib gave me a letter today, asking me to write about how i feel about him..LAME.. then he gave me necklace, earrings and a really posh and elegant white bag which he bought in Bali...hehez=)thanks yeah..ok, whatever....

Cut hair

2005-11-21T21:01:00.000+09:30

I cut my hair today and went for a hair mask.. hihi..The hairdresser said i look like Japanese..duh?? but anyway, i really like my new haircut..hehe=)

Halloween

2005-10-31T22:11:00.002+09:30

Today is HALLOWEEN!!! there's this halloween party in Chinablack..Elly, Sylvia, Jennifer, Krizia(both el and sylvia's friends), Charles, Jia Yi(charles's friend) and me went to the party...It's a party organised by NUS students..

it was my first time to Chinablack..quite exciting..huehe..we sat down inside and order drinks..we arrived early, it was quite empty..so we gals dance first..so funny..everybody watched, a bit paiseh, but who cares, can't see in the dark..haha=)
then we played this game whereby you must drink(sprite+coke+vodka) if you lose..Jia Yi bought the Vodka for 230 bucks..I cheated by not drinking too much..(oopps)But Sylvia was drunk..i was schoked..She vomitted too!Eeew..1st time i saw my friend getting drunk..so poor thing..so Krizia and Jennifer send her home..Elly was unhappy that Sylvia spoilt the fun..I just wish her well..haiz..so we went back in again..Charles danced with Elly.. i don't really like the loudness..hehe

I saw my long-lost friends there..Schizo and Daphney...

so surprising and happy to see them both..The party ends late..it's fun and enjoyable..Wish you were here Mel=)

Sentosa

2005-10-29T23:56:00.001+09:30

today is the day elly, charles, slyvia and me went to Sentosa..it was bright and sunny..good for sun-tanning,hehe=) The first thing we reached there was to eat..very hungry..then we want to swim, but Sylvia was wearing 3/4 Jeans...

we rest on the sad...so relaxing..

before we swam, there's this indo guy who introduces himself to us..he came with his s'pore's army friends. Then he wanted our numbers and all, but we didn't give, say we forgot our number and didn't bring our hp(so obvious it's a lie)..and then we went to swim..Sylvia swam with us finally, but without getting her head inside the water..watch the sunset together

we wanted to cycling or roller-blading,but it was late already, so we went to watch the Musical fountain..hehez..so nice~

overall it was tiring but fun..

I'm in Singapore..

2005-10-28T23:48:00.001+09:30

enjoying my days in Singapore!!!! "pon" skul for a week~naughty..hehe..firstly i had a blast meeting with fir and zong yan..hehe=)SO HAPPY!!!we had a reunion last wednesday..Zong Yan shocked to see me..all Fir's idea,lol..although it's only for a few hours, but it really means a lot!!A lot of activities coming up...hehe..so many things to do but so little time..nevertheless,I'M SOO HAPPY HERE!!!

aniway, i have to catch up on my friends soon...so long never see them..

angry, sad...yet happy..

2005-10-18T20:07:00.001+09:30

so long never update my blog...got fungae growing already, lol... so many things happened since the last time i updated my blog...happy things and sad things...but mostly are sad...haiz..so angry with Alex right now..my laptop got problem, i trust him to help me repair...he format my laptop without backin-up my important files, which i dun mind...but i'm angry coz all my photos that i saved in my desktop folder GONE...all my memories..GONE..hiks..all the photos with my friends, the trip to sentosa, the trip to HK, ...all GONE...can't retrieve it back liao...haiz...so angry and sad=..( Everyone consoled me...Adi surprised me by saying that even though memories in photos are gone, it will still remained in your heart...waahh..it's quite true..but still...arghhh..

All my friends in the class scolded Alex..I pity him..he so poor thing..angry with him also no use...the photos won't return...irreversible process..!!!haiz...can't believe yesterday still happy happy go watch "the eye 10" movie with him and Yosi..yet today..hrmp..so sad..

Aniway, dun want to talk bout him le....now is the good news....i'm goin to singapore soon...hehehehe...can't wait...=)

flightplan..

2005-10-03T23:50:00.000+09:30

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELODY!! she flew to Japan for further studies last nite..h0pe she will enjoy herself there!!!

After skul Yosi, Fani, Nia, Icha, Alex and me went to watch movie. We watch "Flightplan" The show is very thrilling..me and Yosi kept on shouting throughout the show..Now i can sms my friends as much as i want coz i got 100 msg free daily...haha..it's a lot right? Test is coming soon...aiyo..

Today heard from Yosi that Habib asked her what belated birthday present to buy for me...ohmigod...it's like a month ago!!!HrMP..If he asks me, i will replied "i wAN A DIGICAM!!" hehe...juz jokin..hehe..

After watching the movie, Alex send me home.

diLEmMa

2005-10-02T23:47:00.000+09:30

What would you do if a person whom you treat as your best friend came and confess his feelings for you?? Last week, Putu confesses to me... UNBELIEVABLE.SCHOCKED.STUNNED.. I've always treat him as my friend...He says he likes me bcoz i'm different from every gal he's ever met..(whatever..)He wrote a very "Romeo&Juliet" poem for me..which is romantic, but very hard to understand..He's a nice guy..but i told him i wanna be friends..not more than that...He told me his bez fren, Habib still has a feelin for me..what is Putu thinking???how can best friends betray each other??so now it's strange for me to act normal in front of him..I hate to break a person's feelings..but what can i do?? I'm soo sorry...Rio, Alex, Yosi and Nia helped me alot..thanks guys=)

Out with Harris..

2005-09-25T22:49:00.001+09:30

Got a serious headache today...maybe because of the sea breeze yesterday..But i still go out today, Harris and me arranged to meet in Taman Anggrek mall. He was late!! Late for a few minutes is understandable, but he was late for 1 HOUR!! I risked my life waiting for him...coz i was being followed by a group of chinese guys...i went to the cinema and sat down on the sofa, then they pushed 1 of their friends to seat beside me..so irritating...i quickly got up and walked out as quickly as possible blending in with the crowd..( during weekend this mall is packed..)luckily there got Ice-Skating competition, then got skate-boarding competition and hiphop dance performance(my fav!!) so got a whole lot of ppl...

Finally Harris came after walking around the mall for soo long..was so angry with him!!but i can't stay angry with him for too long.he told me he felt uneasy, coz got lots of ppl staring at me...i dun feel it..is it something wrong with me??anyway we went to eat D'crepes ice-cream..then went to Photobox..and went to print our pictures from his new Nokia hp.we chatted..time really flies..then it's time for me to go home. His dad, aunt and Grandma is in Taman Anggrek too! They wanted to see me..So i went to see them..But it's still okay, coz Harris said they got a very good impression of me, hehe..Best friends forever ris.

Tomorrow is Adi's Birthday!!=) must call USA and WiSh him..

AncoL

2005-09-24T23:55:00.001+09:30

Today mum bring me to Hotel Dusit, then from there we went shopping..so fun to shop with my mum..coz she will buy the things that i really want and like..

Then we went to Ancol..it's like Sentosa, but twice bigger than Sentosa. We went there and stroll at the beach, then went to eat and shop alot of antique stuffs there..Ancol is really very big..need cars to get around, if not will be very tired..Inside Ancol got Sea World, Dufan(entertainment centre),Hotels,etc..I want to go and take the roller-coaster ride, but i changed my mind..coz got alot of ppl..saw some germans there, then i talked to them, lol..luckily they understood me..Went home very late...very tired~

Driving license!!

2005-09-23T22:50:00.000+09:30

I got my driving license today!! So happy=) This time of the year can't buy license, we must go for a test..coz they will check..After skul mum drove me to the driving test place..we thought only got theory test, but when we got there, the person said need Practical test..arrghh..at that instant, i'm totally shocked..coz i learn driving only twice with my mum, the last time we practiced was 2 months ago.. The test was scheduled 30 minutes later..so mum quickly brought me to her car, ask me to practice on that spot in the carpark...aiyoo...so nervous..I'm surprised that i still remember how to start the car,lol..when turning, i nearly went down the drain..nearly bang into someone's car..so funny..so scary...mum teach me how to park, reverse..all that happened real fast..then it's time for me to go for my test..

When i entered the theory test room, the policeman questioned my name..then we started our theory test..surprisingly, when the officer said "start", got a few ppl had already finished doing...lol..got 30 questions, i thought only got 15..(i never see the other side of the paper)all the others finished fast, except me and few others..i finished my 15 questions, then i passed up..the policeman asks me to fill the answers of 16-30 anyhow..I was shocked to find out that i havent finished...i quickly take back my question paper and started to go back to my seat, but the officer said:"Hana, just shade any answers, i'm the one who mark your paper..i will give you full mark.."and he took my question paper..i was shocked..never in my life have i ever asked to anyhow wrote an answer in a test and still got full mark..but then again...this is indonesia, haha...but he only said that to me..not to others..so funny lor.i was bewildered..

Then it was time for Practical... i made 3 new friends there, they were Meta, Grace and Fani..B4 the practical starts, i'm soo nervous..but when i knew we only need to go straight, turn then park the car, i'm so relieved...coz it's so easy..hehe..It all went well..and i got my driving license already, hehe=) only practiced 3 times can get already..so happy..

jAY Ch0u~

2005-09-21T21:02:00.000+09:30

Last Sunday, mum came back from Singapore...and she brought my Jay Chou CD!! sooo happy=) so i hear "Yuan You Hui" many times(i luv tat song...

I was in a very bad mood today...feeling very very sad..=( Everyone asks me what's wrong..but i can't reply... i juz fell very d0wn t0day..Putu asks me out, but i rejected..After skul, Rio drove me to a place to eat. The foods there very delicious..yummy..chat with him..he got a way of making me feel better..a nice friend(he kept on laughing when he talks to me,entertaining me,haha..)so i'm not that sad anymore=) Now my schoolwork is getting harder and harder..evertime i told myself to work hard, but end up slacking...but..now i must really work hard!!hehe..

yipee..

2005-09-16T22:04:00.000+09:30

i ignore Alex whole day even though i seat beside him..he kept on saying sorry, but i didn't reply him..dun care..Rio came to skul today in a very weak state..h0pe that he will recover soon..

today Fani, Icha, Nia, Yosi and me went to Kelapa Gading mall..very farr away from my house.. we have lots of fun there.. shopping, photo-taking, eating, chatting..Icha, Fani and me went to go and pierce our ear..the process not that pain..i have a new earhole on my right ear..heehee=) so happy..we got a very frightening experience on our way home, but i wun write it here..

my friend in skul, Putu, asked me out on Monday nite to Hard Rock cafe in EX to watch my favourite indonesian singer..Glenn Fredly..he got an exclusive ticket..he will fetch and send me home, but.....the thing starts at 10pm and ends at 2am in the morning..so i can say goodbye to get up-close and personal with Glenn=( so sad..why must the thing starts and ends so late..haiz..

msg to fir:i respect ur decision on the dance thingy, whatever ur decision is, i will be there to support you=) that's what best friends are for rite???hehe..smile always=)

movie

2005-09-15T22:58:00.000+09:30

Rio is sick today, so he didn't come to skul, no one send me home, so Alex drove me to Taman Anggrek mall...We ate at Platinum restaurant..the waitress thought we're a couple, then want to offer the dimmed-lit corner..very funny..i quickly said dun want..after eating we went to watch "The skeleton key"..not scary, but quite thrilling..then Alex send me home.

10 minutes after i reached home, i received a msg from Alex, saying he's lost his way out in my estate..i became very worried..then i received another msg saying "juz joking"..aiyooo..he bluffed me!!!i dun like being bluffed..i'm so mad with him..=(

got this person send me some crush thingy from crushonyou.com.. so everyday, this website send me numerous emails, asking me to guess who the hell this person is..so irritating!!!i wun know who the hell are you if u dun want to reveal urself.. so...please dun send me this kind of thing!!it's childish..

New HP

2005-09-11T14:12:00.001+09:30

without discussing with me, my dad suddenly bought a new handphone for me..coz my panasonic phone can't recognize Indo's SIM card, so when ppl called me, they can hear my voice, but i can't hear theirs.the hp is so cute..very small..i love it=) my panasonic is being sent to singapore for repair..i still love my panasonic..=)

Last Friday the gals and me went to Bakoel Kaffee..we chat and drink coffee.then we proceed to this place to eat which i dun really like. Got a lot of guys and strange gals there..got this group of guys took our pictures without our acknowledgement. HRMMP!!! We quickly eat and then went back to the skul's library. Then i went home by taxi. the uncle purposely turn a big round..so traffic jam..end up reaching home very late..and very expensive too!!(imagine from changi want to go to Orchard, but he go to Jurong first then after that to Orchard..something like that..)That STUPID uncle!!but must also thank him coz i reach home safely, hehe..

Last nite went to restaurant to eat with Dad..got this Valet parking service where someone will help you park your car..dad gave him his keys..i'm always scared that the guy will drove away dad's car away everytime..hahaha..saw dad's friends..the usual thing happen..

His fren: woah..your daughter??so big and pretty

Me:(fake smile coz tired) hehe..hi uncle..hi auntie

auntie: surely got boyfriend already..

Me: HUH? No auntie...(but they wun believe)

while dad just kept quiet, never help me..and then the usual auntie-teen conversation....haiz.
..tired..next Tuesday got exam..arrgghh..how how??

n0te for my big brother, Hadi: ge, congrats that u've entered the best class there!! you're so clever!! your mei mei here miss ya=) must take care orh!!Don't be blinded by the pretty gals there!!

n0te of encouragement for fir: All the best for your dance competition!! i kn0w y0u can d0 it!!=)

hehe

2005-09-07T20:22:00.000+09:30

After skul went to the bank with Rio.he wanted to make atm card.waited there for 2hours!!after that he send me home.so tired and hungry=( ytd i went out wif my dearest Elly.so happy.her chauffeur fetch me.then we went shop shop and gossip as usual=)

~-^**HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME=)

2005-09-05T22:00:00.000+09:30

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME=)

i'm already 18 years old..so fast..i thought i won't be having fun today, but i was wrong..totally wrong. Thanks to those who called me at midnite to sing me birthday song=) hehehe..even adi called me from USA=) Harris, makasih lo jg dah telpon gua,hehe..After skul, a group of us went to the mall and i treat them eat.

was having fun chatting while eating..then suddenly the lights dimmed....a "birthday song" was heard from the speaker. A guy with a birthday cake litted with candles walked out towards me. Everyone in that restaurant looked at me..waahh..i was totally stunned..The people whom i dun recognize in that restaurant sang birthday song for me too! so surprising..i'm elated that my friends gave me this lovely surprise=) i love surprises!! so touched i nearly cried...the birthday cake is blackforest filled with lots of cream and cherry..MY FAVOURITE!! yummy=p LOVE THEM LOTS..

after eating i treat them watch "red eye" movie. so thrilling..i love HORROR movies..they liked the movie too!
today's actually one of the most memorable birthday i've ever had. I h0pe my wishes will come true..

like duh?

2005-09-04T18:51:00.000+09:30

Received a call today..Brother had reached Frankfurt! so happy=) 14 hours flight...very long..if me i dun think i can tahan. Yesterday went with dad to his skul "HWA CHONG" gathering..it's a 66th anniversary. Saw many of his skul friends. Then i'm mistaken twice for a indo movie star..like duh???some of his friends said i look like my mum, some said i look like my dad..like duh(again..) if i dun look like either of them, then i better worry man.. my mother not here, so she didn't went to this gathering..then some people thought i'm my dad's mistress..huh??

later at nite goin to gathering again..update later..
tomorrow is my big day le..haiz..im not at all excited..

sad..

2005-09-01T20:12:00.000+09:30

i'm feeling sad n0w..h0w h0w h0w??? My big br0ther went singap0re yesterday..he's leaving f0r germany 0n saturday..so sad=( at h0me n0 one will bully me, n0 one for me to bully..n0 k0r to help me when i need help. will feel very lonely de..But on the other hand, i'm very pr0ud of him. h0pe he will succeed in German.Yesterday his flight is at 5.40pm, but at 5.50pm he still havent g0 in the gate..luckily never late..then at nite go and see piano..coz my mum's fren wanna buy for his son, he wanna ask my mum's opinion..his daughter called Jane very cute..she's only 5 years old..she's very vain, but in a cute way. she always carry her wallet which got a mirror inside, then she always comb her hair... when we go and see the pianos, she used the piano as a mirror to comb her hair, coz can see our reflection..aiyo..but she's really very cute.

Skul is overall fun and exciting..everytime go skul will late a bit, that time my br0ther drove me to skul(his driving skills very good le!), then very traffic jam coz got digging w0rk, end up reach skul 1 h0ur late..luckily the teacher understand.

after my brother go, Rio will send me h0me..as it's n0t convenient to send me at my door-step everytime, i ask him to drop me somewhere near my house, then from there take taxi. the m0st reliable taxi here is "Blue Bird taxi". Today he and Franz dr0p me near Puri mall, used to have a lot of Blue Bird taxi, but when i went to the taxi stand, not even 1 taxi is there..i panicked..it's quite dangerous here, i feared got bad guys kidnap me for ransom..every negative thoughts i can think of started to appear..i waited there quite s0metime...but none appeared..then i msg Rio, surprisingly he replied that he and Franz still wait for me outside the mall(to make sure i'm safe in a taxi) I'm relieved..Franz got out of the car to search for me..i'm really very relieved..just then, a "Blue Bird" taxi appeared behind Franz..so happy=) Thanks Ri0 anD Franz f0r being such a gentlemen.. t0 my friends in singap0re, don't take for granted the safety Singapore had..any taxi company there are safe to take"comfort, yellow-cab"..etc..here can only take"Blue Bird". haiz..sianz..

Mum go singap0re again tomorrow..she everytime very busy..if u are an avid reader of my blog, u'll realize that my mum is "always on the go", haha..never stay in 1 country for more than a month!!!she need to go singapore to assist my big bro's things to go German.i h0pe she won't tire herself.. and next m0nday is my birthday=) but...it will be a lonely birthday..only got my dad and maids here.s0mem0re my dad go w0rk..luckily still g0t my skul friends.will go and celebrate with them on monday.. hope it'll be a memorable birthday...

2005-08-28T13:11:00.000+09:30

m0re than 1 week nvr update le..wahh..many things happenwithin this few days!!n0w going airport to fetch mum..later then update, hihi=)

Black-Out

2005-08-18T23:40:00.000+09:30

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM!! called her in the morning..she just reached HK..hope she had fun there=) At 10am this morning, suddenly black-out, so the air-con can't work..so HOT!!After skul, our teacher asks Rio's to send her somewhere with his car..lol.At the same time, he dropped my bro and me in Taman Anggrek Mall.There got the "touch the car" contest, like Singapore..those who can make their hand stay the longest on the car can win the car..it's an APV..so nice!!got 2 APV cars to be won..

we met my bro's fren, Rudi. We went to eat and walk around..after that Rudi send us back home in his HONDA JAZZ..wahh..i like JAZZ too!=) Reaching home, we found out that nearly the whole Jakarta black-out..even in Bali..it's because of a power failure or something..it's getting dark soon..and i'm terrified of darkness(moreover that time got the Ghost incident..so become more timid now..)

Luckily just as the sky is getting really dark, my dad bring us to airport as he wanna fetch some of our relatives from Hong Kong who are visiting here. Reached early, so have to wait for a long time..at least better than staying in a dark candle-lit house..haha. At last they appeared and we went to eat supper..then send them to live in 1 of my relative's place. Reached home at 11pm, found out the lights switched-on at around 8.30pm.(since morning till at nite..wahhh) This black-out thing disrupts the roads as traffic-lights arent working, operations in hospitals muz be delayed too!!A lot of skul children got exam tmr also can't study at the last minute..Causing a whole lot of trouble!! hope this won't happen again.. realises that electricity is very important to us..imagine living in a place without lights and air-con..so must really use it wisely...hee=) I havent got time to do my homework, so can use this chance to tell the teacher i can't do it in the dark, hhaaha..oopss=P

HAPPY BIRTHDAY INDONESIA

2005-08-17T14:32:00.001+09:30

HAPPY 60th BIRTHDAY INDONESIA!! very happy=)early in the morning got a group of security in our estate with some residence walk around our estate singing our national song while holding our national flag. soo cute!!

then my dad suggests my brother and me to go and cycle.. so we went cycling after eating breakfast..

got alot of events held in my estate..climbing the pole covered with oil competition..tug-of-war..running race..eating crackers hanging on the air without usin ur hands..saw some of the events..

even in the morning, the sun is shining very brightly..after the whole cycling session, i'm like super sun-tanned..but i'm feeling very happy having this cycling session with my dad.

EX

2005-08-16T22:16:00.000+09:30

Some of my friends promised to go ice-skating today, but they changed the plan..Some not really interested, got 1 gal wear skirt..then got some complain it's too far away from home, so fed up neh.. i even prepared 3 extra gloves for my friends..just hate people who break their promise.Rio is the one who promised to go out with us today, but he needs to go and repair his printer..he feels like he owe me something..i'm kind of disappointed as he'd promised me already, BUT I REALLY DUN MIND..yet he insists on sending me back home after he go and repair his printer.. I just hope that if anyone can't keep their promises, please dun promise me anything as i'll bcome very disappointed and will feel distrust in whoever who breaks it.

The gals then proceed to EX and Plaza Indonesia(the 2 malls are connected)..it's the most elegant and expensive malls in Jakarta..everything there is branded. watch movies also 3 times more expensive. we will see a lot of celebrities there too!!we went to eat at pizza hut and we saw a celebrity there..she's pretty, but too bad she's such a snob..act as if everyone in the whole world owes her..after that we walk around shop shop and then take neoprint..here they called it "photo-box". soo fun=)After that Rio and Franz fetch me from the mall's lobby..**i'm really very touched as Rio had to rushed to somewhere later, but he still come and fetch me even though it's very late already.somemore the road here always traffic jam..sianz...suddenly i feel very tired, so i took a small nap in his car...

Mum went to Singapore today. Tomorrow is INDONESIA'S NATIONAL DAY!! 18 August is my MUM'S BIRTHDAY!!she's goin Hong Kong on that date with her dad and sisters..wish that she will have lots of fun there and dun forget to shop my things..hehe=P

OuT

2005-08-13T22:48:00.001+09:30

At 12.20pm today, Rio, Roy and Franz came in Rio's car to my house and fetch me. Rio says he'll fetch me at 12, but they all late..aniway, we went to JCC(like singapore's EXPO) together to see the overseas education show thingy...asks a few questions there about studying in Germany..then go and ask Canada, China and netherlands education

We met Yosi, Nia and Wiwid there.. g0t alot of ppl coz tonite got Indonesian Idol final which takes place there also.. After that we went to PS(not Plaza Singapura, but Plaza Senayan,lol...)
we went there to eat and walk2, but Rio had to go as he needed to go with his frens and watch indo idol at JCC.they suggested goin out again on Tuesday after skul..

FrieNds

2005-08-12T19:27:00.000+09:30

my cL0se friends here=) Love them lots..

hihi

2005-08-11T22:43:00.001+09:30

Today 2 of my classmates brought digi-cam, so the whole class become photo-freak like me lol...we really took lots of pictures...haha..so fuuunnn!! it's been such a long time since i took lots of funny funny pics=)

aniway, my brother went to his fren's bdae party, so Rio(the name same as Roy,lol) send me home with his car...he also send 1 of my fren, Franz..3 of us live quite near each other..in his car, we listen to chinese songs..he likes all the chinese songs that i like..we're planning to go out this Saturday and he will fetch me from my house...and my friends want me to be safe also, haha..they soo good rite. will post some pics soon..ciaoz=)

Anxiety

2005-08-09T21:10:00.001+09:30

i've disappeared for quite sometime..lol..coz was quite busy these few days. Go with mum and bro to shop for bro's necessities coz he's goin Germany end of this month..very fast..oh ya..today Singapore's birthday!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE..MISS YA=) i still remember..hahaha

I think the ghost thingy in my house is gone..every nite i pray that it won't show up again..every nite i went to bed with anxiety..sleeping is once my hobby, but now i dreaded goin to bed at nite..haiz...GOD please help me return my beauty sleep...

Today during break, 95% of us went out of school to eat..some of my frens drive car, so we went to the nearest shopping mall..very fun!! never a minute of boredness hanging out with them. we ate and talk and laugh..when going back that time, something funny happen..in the carpark got 1 other ppl's car same as my classmate's, he tried to open the door with his key, thinking it was his car..lol..we laugh until stomachache=)we bought crepes for our teacher..reached school 15 minutes late..then the teacher thought we wanna bribe her with the crepes, haha..but luckily she's not angry.Got someone in class jealous that i sat with Adi..haiz..please dun anyhow think..ich liebst du nicht, und ich habe keine Lust, ein Fruend zur Zeit zu haben =)

read this person's blog and i nearly cried..aber ich kann nicht das machen..i've left behind memories that i can't erased even if i tried..aniwae, Mel just called me while writing this blog. she's with Elly in singapore..they're eating in Orchard Road..i miss that place badly=(she's going to Japan real soon...wish her good luck, i miss her already=(

i h0pe i can give happiness to someone that matters me most..no more sorrows..no more worries..just happiness..sometimes i h0pe i can just disappear---*POOOOF*---

CheRish wHat y0u have n0w..sometimes if u love someone, u're too scared to confess..u waited and waited..that someone likes u too..u didn't know..but they also waited for too long..eventually,that someone found their happiness with other ppl..i dunno what i'm saying also,lol...but the point is...teLL s0me1 that u LuV him/her todaE..u'LL never kn0w when it's t00 early or t00 Late..

can't sLeep

2005-08-04T18:12:00.000+09:30

i had a restless sleep again last nite..slept at 11pm..woke up suddenly at 2am..looked around me..then i tried to sleep again, but always woke up by the slightest noise..i ran to the other side of my room and on the lights..in the end, i read magazines..suddenly the door opened at around 3am..scared me..it's my dad..he questioned me why i'm not asleep yet.. then he off the lights..after awhile, i on the lights back and tried to do my homework(havent do..haha)..my dad came again soon after and asks me to sleep..so i tried to sleep with the lights on..at aroung 4am,ihe came to check on me again..but i'm still wide awake even though i'm tired..so he asks me to sleep in their room..i can sleep better there, but i dreamt of 3 ghosts waving goodbye to me..eerie=( i'm so scared to sleep now..haiz..sleeping is actually my favourite hobby..i told my dad bout the dream..he said "when they wave goodbye, u shud say 'dun ever come back again'" Lol..he said he wanted to give me drink "god's water"..i dun't know how to fall asleep again tonight..wish me good luck aight?

tOday brother went for check up to make visa to go German..so he didn't go German class..got this stupid guy in skul when saw me, he will give this "pervetic" face..and he tried talking to me..but i act blur..so irritating neh..but skul is very interesting today..the teacher arranged the gals to interract with the guys..i end up seating with adi..he's a good friend.keep laughing until i stomachache..i really h0pe i can sleep soundly tonight..

Gh0st

2005-08-03T21:05:00.000+09:30

i experienced a very thrilling encounter with the "other world" today(early morning..)i was sleeping quite soundly when my big bro wake me up to go down and open the gate for my parents as my maids already slept.it was just past midnite..they juz came back from "rumah duka" it's a place where dead ppl are placed..in a state of dizziness plus sleepiness plus angriness, i opened the door first..cold air gushed in..then i opened the gate..my father then asked me to continue sleeping. i tried to sleep but i can't..keep turning around..my brother had slept..it's already around 1am..suddenly, i trembled..it's not a usual tremble..the feeling is like as if a ghost just walked past u..suddenly, i can't move..i peered open my eyes, and i saw a figure kneeling beside me..i can only see the black hair..but very shiny..i was petrified..but i can't move.at that instant, i can feel what the ghost's thinkings are..it wanted to go inside my body..i know this sounds crazy...but it's really true.. then, i just closed my eyes and shout in chinese"please dun disturb me, i want to sleep.." suddenly, the feeling disappeared..i slowly opened my eyes, and the "thing" is gone..i wanted to run to my brother's bed and sleep with him...or run downstairs for my parents help..but i'm scared..so i just stayed till i fell asleep..my sleep was soon disturbed by a nightmare..My brother woke up in the morning and told me he dreamt of a woman ghost with silky hair in our house..arrggHHH!!!!

we told our parents in the morning..it turns out that they forgot to bring GINGER when they went to "rumah duka" and that's why a spirit followed them home..and i'm in a weak state(just woke up) when i opened the gate, so the spirit come and find me..i'm very scared...hur hur..my 2nd time encounter with ghost...but it's my 1st time seeing it..better pray hard everyday...mum also asks me to eat more so that i will be strong..

aniway, now is the good news, hehehe...for our test, we have 4 parts.Listening, Compre, Compo and Verb/noun test.. the teacher have already give out listening and compre..i got full marks for both=) only 2 people got full marks for both=) hehe..for the compre got some i dun understand the meaning, so i anihow do, also can get full marks, hehe=)
please pray for me so that the "thingy" dun come and disturb me again..

LoL

2005-07-28T22:56:00.001+09:30

Yesterday they purposely hide all the chairs, so i have no choice but to seat beside habib. during break, the whole class already planned to leave me alone in the class with him. i tried to open the door, but the guys pushed it from outside. so he said he liked me in that empty class..ugh..when he said that to me, i feel like laughing, dunno why ..lol..it's like we just known each other for merely 10 days, and so fast he confesses his love.i questioned him why he likes me, then he said he knows that i'm the ONE since the 1st day we met..like Love At First Sight..bullshit one lah..only 10 days..haiya. i told him i dun like these kinda thing..then he said he wanna wait..my experience told me that it's a pity for guys who wait for me, so i ask him not to..and i told him study is more important..if got this "love" thing, we won't concentrate in class..going home that time, he shouted:"i'll always wait for you" i juz rolled my eyes(but he didn't see)..so cruel leh..but i really dunno what else to do..

my class got this guy called Adi really looks like my best friend called Adi too in USA.he's really a nice guy and it's good to have him in class..=) At nite, our whole family went to KaraOke=)

today i ignored him in class..he seat beside me, but i didn't talk to him much..luckily got group work(he in other group) the teacher asks him to ask question to other ppl.he asked me and all the class cheered..but when it's my turn, i asked other guys but not him..lol..i hate this kinda thing..

ugh

2005-07-26T23:34:00.001+09:30

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HASWIN!!Today is my brother's bdae, but he's in singapore..so can't celebrate it with him..yesterday was HARRIS' BIRTHDAY..wish our friendship will last=)

aniwae,the performance last Sunday was a success..i went to a new saloon on saturday to cut my hair..shorter now, more manageable.the hairdresser said that i am the "longest hair" customer they had ever served..even asked me to do hair commercial.lol..

Today was late for 10 minutes..luckily never sing coz the teacher teaching us on Monday and Tuesday is more kind. The guys in my class keep on teasing me..haiz..so sick of it..they "SABO" Habib to seat beside me by hiding all the empty chairs, leaving only 1 empty chair that was beside me..the guys told me he likes me..

i was forced to take this picture...grr

when we have our break, I heard Roy said it's his turn to seat beside me..WHATEVER!!!they all so childish one..all the gals never kana only me kana..i overheard they all plan something tomorrow without me knowing..surely wanna "SABO" me again..haiz..can they please understand that i'm NOT interested in any of them..not that they're not my criteria or anithin..but i'm just not interested in this kinda thing..and please man, if i often talk to you doesn't mean that i like u..and if out of nowhere i look at u, doesn't mean i'm checking you out either.ugh!!the guys are fun, but so playful..Habib showed me his cousin's picture..really looks like me..

Looks like me ALOT right?? my mum and dad can't even recognize that it wasn't me in that photo..waahhh...see this pic..compare with the pic of the gal who looks like me..
exactly the same...
all of us dun realize that there is always someone who looks like them in this world.lol..

=)

2005-07-21T23:21:00.000+09:30

Today i was late to skul(only 5 minutes late), so me and a guy called Habib (30 minutes late)were punished -- sing a german song in front of the class...every morning my dad will fetch brother and me there..the skul is in the central of Jakarta..and my house in the West..and the road here traffic jam..so of course late..haiz..but sing in front of class is fun..the guys in my class very funny..

at nite, when i was in the washroom,Habib called me..he called me thrice..he said he's sick and can't come to skul tomorrow..i'm not in-charge of the absentees..so i questioned him why he called me..he said if he never call me he feel very funny..uh..what the..aniway, Zac msg me and said that 2 days later which is 23/7 is the mark of our 1 year of knowing each other...his memory very good..haha..i like guys who can remember well those small details.This Sunday got performance..i must sing in front of a lot of my parents friends..aiyo..wish me luck=)

hOme

2005-07-20T22:31:00.001+09:30

my German class starts on last monday..my classmates are very fun people..we clicked, it's hard to believe we just known each other for 3 days..there are only 7 gals in class, the rest 14 are guys..haha.. Last Sunday on the day i went back, Harris and Adi gave me Swarovski Crystal necklace..wahh...very expensive..the necklace shape is like a jigsaw puzzle..it's a friendship necklace..it's sparkling..woow..i really love it=)Thanks a lot!!First time receive Swarovski from my friends..=))

Biah and me.

Only can see me clearly, lol..my classmates(gals)

DAVID BECKHAM

2005-07-05T10:36:00.000+09:30

DAVID BECKHAM IS COMING...can u believe it??? Fir booked for me the tickets.. he's my all time football idol!! I can't believe i will meet him face-to-face...it's like a dream come true!! Oh My God...have to cancel an important date with a friend becoz of david beckham...coz it's like once in a life time thing =) even if specially go madrid to see him also cannot..now he's like coming HERE..still can't believe it!! later at 1.30pm then can see him.hehehe..speaking of starstruck.haha

busyyy

2005-06-29T23:55:00.001+09:30

t0day schedule very packed.

meet fir to give him something n i had to rush(so sOrry yar)coz i had to go out .saw zee, yeeshan, mina, dila, annur, matt..so happy to see them=))

after that erick suggested we go and eat. then he go and meet his friend while i go and meet xinhui n xiaohui..xiaohui bought a pair of slippers.then we take neoprint..

they gave me this cute bracelet..really very girly..thanks a lot=) we chat and laugh...normal for gals to gossip..haha..

after they went home, i met harris..we go and watch War of the wOrLds at 9.10pm. today is the 1st day screening of the movie, soo many people...on the way to buy tix, saw zong yan working..she looked very sad..try to console her..we helped her close the booth and went to eat. she left with her fren soon after..

before the movie starts, i was yawning the whole time..very sleepy..but when the movie begins, i kept on closing my ears, dun feel sleepy anymore, coz the movie very thrilling..it's about aliens invading earth..they suck human's blood all that..use their laser kill everyone..so scary. those havent watch shud go and watch=) tOm cruise is cute and i hate Dakota fanning's(tom cruise's daughter in the film) screeching..so loud until ear wanna deaf..i was wondering what if this thing really happens to our earth..i think i will be the one to die first..hope aliens dun exist.

go sg

2005-06-26T21:40:00.000+09:30

today went to singapore..my flight is in the afternoon with 1 of my brother..i was sad to leave my mum and dad=( but i'm looking forward to spending a hella good time with all my friends there!!=)niwae, after reaching, i cleaned up the house. around evening, i went to airport again to fetch my 2 small bro and my maid.(different flight from me) Lester say he wanna follow me go..i dun wanna trouble him, but thanks for accompanying me to the airport=) !!we talked and laugh on the way just like old times=)we reached there quite early.. something surprising happen..suddenly a hand tap me from behind..it's Erick..aiyo...so coincidence..he's there to fetch his friend in the same flight...niwae, we promised to hang out with each other while i'm here.Lester say my brothers' cute..ehehe..of coz=P thanks again lester for coming with me!! =)

2005-06-25T23:18:00.000+09:30

let me tell u what happen to me last wednesday..i nearly fainted..i was in the bathroom when suddenly my vision blurred. i dropped to the floor, knees shaking..i'm very terrified as my families are in the dining room eating lunch, they can't hear me if i shout from the bathroom(it's too far) .. using all my power, i walked shakily towards the bed and shout for my mum..the weather's hot but i'm feelin cold with perspiration. my face paled..i gasped for air..i feel very giddy..i thought i'm gonna die..when i was in that state, i was thinkin of the arrival of ambulance and my death will..to exaggerating..silly me to think of that..luckily my mum came to my aid.. i really dunno what happen to me..my mum said i lack of blood..anaemia..i h0pe this won't happen to me again..

today went to saloon, got 2 gays there..they kept on touching my hair..purposely go and touch my neck..eww..disgusting..my brother nearly becone their victim..then mum bring us to the big shopping mall in indo and we played arcade together..very fun eh..i learnt how to drive again with mum, a bit better now, but the machine died afew times..when i turn 18 this year, i'm gonna apply for driving license. in indo no need to go driving test to have a driving license(hehe)

kissing quiz

2005-06-17T20:26:00.000+09:30

I did this quiz, haha...so funnie..check this out!!

Part Passionate Kisser

For you, kissing is about all about following your urges
If someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of story
You can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kisses
A total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble

Part Romantic Kisser

For you, kissing is all about feeling the romance
You love to kiss under the stars or by the sea
The perfect kiss involves the perfect mood
It's pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feet

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

Happy birthday Hadi!!

2005-06-15T22:20:00.000+09:30

Happy Birthday Hadi!!

Today is my brother's 19th birthday, so we celebrate it in a seafood restaurant. I was shocked coz in the morning, Lester, my friend, called me =)

Sunday!!

2005-06-12T22:18:00.000+09:30

Sunday!! it's FAMILY DAY!! i love sunday!today our whole family went to the big temple to pray..then went to grandpa's house.we went to eat lunch together..shop for furniture together..eat lunch together..went to shopping center and play arcade together..really fun=) my dad likes to play the basketball game in the arcade, so we play together..the ball quite heavy, but it was worth it..then we shop in the supermarket and eat dinner together. My brother, Hadi, ride the car home..i'm shocked that he can ride so well..haiz..not like me..it's not easy to ride a car in indo..a lot of drivers here very inconsiderate..i saw someone i shudn't have seen here.=( but what can i do..he live across..surely will see one=( Xin ru msg me, she told me about the days in skul..i wish her the best=) this coming wednesday is my brother's, Hadi bdae..yeah!

so blessed..

2005-06-11T23:01:00.001+09:30

Last nite our whole family went to this super rich person's 50th Golden wedding anniversary celebration in their house..the party's very grand..got dancing session..they send the chef from Hong Kong, and the waiter and waitresses bring from hotel..the food's nice, abalone, shark fin, the strawberry super big!!

Their house decorated by fresh flowers..woahh..superr nice..

haswan and haswin

me and mum

Just now around 9pm, dad, mum, me and 1 of my brother, Hari, stroll around our estate..me and Hari ride the mountain bike..while both of them stroll..it's been a long time since we did this together..i feel so blessed..i feel so happy to see my mum and dad walking together..=)but...i saw 3 dogs from afar..guess what? suddenly they chase after hari and me, so i used all my energy to ride the bike faster..they nearly bite me..luckily mum and dad helped me..stupid dogs!!now me and hari got phobia to ride pass that street..i WILL NEVER EVER RIDE PASS THERE AGAIN!!

hmm..

2005-06-10T19:46:00.000+09:30

my trip was fun..but too bad..no DIGICAM to capture the moment.. =( firstly, i wanna thank Firdaus, Zong Yan, Jiang hao, Ya ting and rabiah for waking up so early in the morning to send me to the airport..imagine reaching there at 6am in the morning yet i havent reach there yet..Thank You=) i thought you guys won't make it, so i didn't call in the morning..(scared still sleeping..)surprisingly, when i'm still in the taxi, they reached already..haha=)i'm very touched..thank you once again=)Biah told me that stagearts got to the finals for drama competition..so happy and proud of them!!i hope stagearts did well for club crawl..so sad that i can't join..

my trip...

2005-06-08T13:32:00.000+09:30

Reached HK in the morning..the first thing mum and me did was to sleep in the hotel..haha..we woke up at around 5pm and we started to shop..even though it's summer there, but the air is still cool.really shop a lot there..visit one of my family there too..the shopkeeper, the chef in the restaurant, all said to me that they remembered me coming last year...they dun remember my mum..they only remember me coz of my hair and eyes..duh..went to find Zong yan's bag..i saw one really nice one..and BIG(that's what she wants)so i bought it..went to DIOR shop, but can't find the hp keychain that Lester want..so sorry lest..

second day there, we went on a day tour..we went to places that i've been to last time..so there's nothing special..after the days in HK, my mum suggested that we went to Macau..so we took a ferry from HK there..only about 1 hour reach already..the ferry moves so fast that it looks as if that it was flying halfway in the air.We live in HOtel Golden Dragon in Macau.it's a very big and luxurious hotel.. OMG, i was shocked when i reached there..coz everywhere i see, there's casinos around..even in the hotel that i'm staying..around my hotel, there's around 5-6 casinos..all big building..the bellboy is very friendly to me..explaining all Macau's places of interest..We went to "Da San Ba"..i'm very fascinated by the wall..the building was destroyed in a fire during a war..only the big wall remained..

niwae, i dressed quite grown up that first nite in Macau so that can go Casino with mum..the age limit is 18, but i'm still 17+..we exchanged handbag..in my bag got water bottle, so when the person check the bag, he asked my mum to drink it, scared that it's poison..haha=) i'm so relieved when they let me in..so we went to this VIP place where only limited people can go..when we settle down, they ask for our passport coz they want to make the VIP card for us..guess what?i was kicked out from the VIP place..haiz..so i walked down to the public casino alone and was bored...went back to hotel after that..find out my mum held the hotel key..can't contact her HP..really dun know what to do at that time..luckily the kind bellboy helped me=)

Second nite there..we go again..then i tried to sneaked in the VIP place, but too bad..the person recognized my super long hair..haha=( maybe have to cut my hair already...i'm recognized only by my hair..haiz..=( so went to our hotel's casino..saw my mum played..actually quite exciting=)but i hate the smoke smell..so i can't stay there long..then we proceed to GuangZhou..bought lots of junk food for dad..i really had an enjoyable trip..=)

Bon Voyage

2005-05-27T01:04:00.000+09:30

Brother came back from Germany 2 days ago, while he transit in Paris, international artist, Michelle Yeo took the same flight, so i saw her in the airport coming out with him..she's so pretty..My mum bought lots of goodies..mostly chocolates.YUMMY!! bOth of them got lots of experience to tell me. I saw him in skul the other day=)..Niwae, i'm leaving in a few hours time to HK!! Jiang Hao insist on going to the airport and send me off, Zong yan, Biah and Ya ting too!! Aiyo, they must wake up really early just to send me off..i'm very touched=)Thanks a lot guys!!I will surely miss all my friends..I won't be blogging for awhile till i'm back..till then wish u guys the BEST!!hOpe stage arts drama can win the drama competitiOn.. Bon Voyage..Gute Reise

Malaysia trip

2005-05-21T13:48:00.000+09:30

I went to malaysia with Elly, her mum and my 3rd aunt to visit Mel and her parents on the 19th..Her house is big, and she just bought a new car.The 1st thing we did was to look at the photos when we're small..OMG, i looked damn silly..but it was fun remembering the past..

That's my brother, me and mel..

yeah..that's me..so chubby last time, huehuehue=)The hair my mum tie for me one..haha..

After that El, Mel and me chat and eat supper and we end up sleeping at 4am..The next day we woke up at 10am(not enough sleep..) coz we wanna go shop shop.

That's my aunt opening the gate..The view from her house nice leh..

We went to eat breakfast, then went to City Square for shopping time.Was fun shopping with them..overall, my stay in Malaysia is fun..mostly eat and shop..

umm.

2005-05-12T12:02:00.001+09:30

Dance today, i discovered some shocked truth ..but nevermind, it's settled..hope u're still my best friend =P dance practice was fun!!we learnt 3 new dance steps..then we are to perform solo..wahh..i very scared, coz i not really sure of my steps..i screw up a bit,hehe..but this practice teachs us to be thick skinned..like dance in front of many people and not feeling paiseh,hehe..I really like belinda alot..i just get to know her, but it seems that we've known for ages.We all very enthu, dance until late at nite..JH, Fir, Josh, Yee Shan, Rene and mina got performance in skul tmr. they found out at the last minute that the theme is retro, but they all dance hip-hop..aiyo..aniway, wish them luck=)Mum went to Berlin,Germany today, to go and meet my big brother. i don't get to send her off, coz got dance..abit sad..she will transit in Amsterdam..reach there tomorrow..the journey is 17 hours..wah..so long!!

Berlin

2005-05-10T16:29:00.000+09:30

Went to airport to see my big brother as he and his friend, Octaleta will transit in Singapore from Jakarta to Berlin, they will transit to Paris next. The reason they went there is that both of them was selected to represent Indonesia on a youth congress, they will make presentation in Berlin about Jakarta. Early in the morning, mum and me went to Hwa Chung JC, the vice principal was very happy about my brother, coz bring glory to the skul, she even print out the nespaper article about my bro..so proud of him=), and we went to Chinese high Skul, and the same thing happens..

from left=Octaleta, My bro, Mum..

when i saw my brother, i run and hug him..miss him so much..as a sis, i'm so happy for him=)take picture with Octa..

my mum will proceed to Berlin 2 days later to go and explore with him..they will go Frankfurt all that, wahhh..

Happy Birthday Elly

2005-05-09T21:23:00.000+09:30

Elly's birthday today!! She got exam the next day, so she can't hang out in town as it is too far away from her house. Met Harris and we proceed to meet Elly. Gave her my presents,she liked the pink cardigan so much that she wore it on the spot, hehe=) then we went to eat,i bought a small cake for her.

we really had a good time there.Laugh alot, coz elly said there's Harris there, haha..

Kingdom of heaven

2005-05-05T23:55:00.001+09:30

went out with Xin ru today. We walk around in town, suddenly got a msg from Boyao,whom i don't really know, saying that he saw me there but i never see him..uh, long time never see him le..bought a pink sweater for Elly. Quite expensive.. her birthday is coming on Monday!!Like me, she likes pink too!! me and xinru bought an identical necklace shape of star as memory of our friendship..then i saw a cute ribbon earring, can't resist but to buy it=) when both of us are walking, we saw lots of police motors and the roads are being blocked..we thought got accident, but it seems that the late wee kim kee is being send to his house in the car..

after that i got a call from Harris, asking me whether i wanna watch "kingdom of heaven" at 7pm, but i got dance, so i asks him to watch at a later time. He insist to watch at 7 coz he tomorrow got sports day in skul, but i won at last, lol. went back to skul for dance. we learnt jazz, it was fun!! saw 2 new members, 1 of them called Belinda. Ris called me at 8.40..i ran to mrt station, saw Cheng Ji for OGL. Reached at 9.10. we watching 9.30 movie. Harris brought his new DIGICAM!!we took lots of pic there, haha, so funnie!!He says i've grown fatter!!Ugh..i eat then sleep, of course fatter liao..like pig..the movie is fantastic!!One of the best movies i've ever watched!It is about fighting to win Jerusalam, also got about Christian and Muslim religion conflicts. The war scene like Lord of the Rings!!Orlando Bloom very handsome!!He's charming!!He's cool!! OMG, i fell head over heels for him again..the theatre very coLd!!really coLd!! so i used the pink sweater i'm getting for Elly's..oops..but the coLdness really can't tahan already.was shivering there..

so fun!!

2005-05-01T22:57:00.001+09:30

Me and Elly's childhood friend, Yuninda,her auntie and uncle came, so we had to bring her around to shop. She bought lots of things, mostly souvenirs for her friends, and bought ipod for herself. Charles, Elly's friend came and it is very uncomfortable, coz she had to accompany ninda and charles..and moreover Harris has arrived..so Elly act tired in front of them and they insist we go home after a whole day of shopping, so we bring them to the taxi stand. Watching Harris and Charles waiting for us in the corner made me and Elly chuckle.Ninda's aunt was confused on why we laugh so much, haha=)

I apologized to Harris n Charles for making them wait..then we went to bought movie tix.Charles suggest we watch "Divergence". Harris told me he has DG cam..but he didn't bring..he got digi cam already!!So happy for him=)Then we went to starbucks and i order my favourite Mocha ice blended topped with cream!! we chatted then laugh and laugh, Elly is totally amazed by Harris's sense of humour, and i find Charles blur look very cute and funny=)

Then we went to Toys 'r' Us and play with the cute fluffy bears and huge flowers

Both of us wanna buy the flowers, but dunno where to put, coz it's so HUGE!!

Then harris took our pictures with the bears... Saw Zong Yan working at her booth..she looks sad..i went over to console her, but i can't stay long as my movie is starting, so i promised i will go hang out with her next week. I was shocked when she told me why she's sad.Then suddenly Harris called me coz he saw our oldfriend, Spenser, OMG, i'm so shocked yet happy to see him.. remembering those days when gris and me think that he's 1 of the cutest in class..What's weird is that he ended up watching the same movie as us, sitting at the exact same row!!so coincidence, I don't understand the movie at all. Harris, Elly and me kept on laughing, trying to understand the moral of the story. Charles is concentrating hard on the movie all along, making us laugh even harder. After the movie ended, Spenser asks me and Harris to go play pool, but we dun want. we went to the washroom on level 4. me and harris walked in front. Suddenly, the gate behind us was being closed by the security..so we're trapped..

we laugh and laugh until stomachache. so harris and me went to the washroom and we meet them outside..The moment we saw them, we laugh even louder..aiyo..can't stand it anymore..so we quickly part ways before we laugh even harder..They suggest going to beach together..can't wait=)

tired

2005-04-27T23:34:00.001+09:30

Fir publish this magazine for me, haha=)

Yesterday go out with Rabiah, both of us bought lots of earrings, we took our height and weight there..wah..i think i grew fatter.. then take dunno what bus,met Zack, Ying Shi and tecko..got 1 crazy uncle came and talk to me..very scary.going out with Biah is always an adventure, it's very exciting. I can open up to her almost anithing, and she won't anihow judge me, love her lots=)

someone asks me out to go his class chalet today..on my way to meet Lester and Xiao hui, got this gal from BHI modelling agency approach me, then i say wait for Lester to come, it turns out BHI is for gals, hahahaha...sorry Lester=( so paiseh..so i didn't give her my no., i'm not interested, coz BHI is bluff one..XH came soon after, then suddenly we're approach by 3 ppl, 1 of them asks us to donate, the other one from BHI(again), the 3rd one is survey thingy...wahh..3 of us down there *pengz* niwae,Xiao hui and Lester keep making me laugh leh, spending time with them is GREAT!! they help me choose clothes, then we went to eat at LJS, went to take neoprints

both of them don't let me meet my friend, it's already late at night, and they're concern about me..they make sure i put their numbers on speed dial,lol.went to pasir ris to meet him.He is LATE!!make me wait in the middle of the night!!!we walked to Pasir Ris town park, play the swing there and we talked..then we walked to Pasir Ris park, near the beach there(very farrr)we try to race each other(he looks down on my running skill) niwae, we talked somemore..we star-gaze, well, he didn't break his promise after all, lol. then he took pictures of our footprints on the sand. then i took pic of the sea with the ship
saw firefly there, wah wah, it really fascinates me=) Lester and Xiaohui called me to make sure that i'm alright, haha, as if he will eat me like that,lol, but i appreciate their concern!!thanks a lot!!zack also called me, ask me out tmr. niwae, we talk and talk and talk...this is the first time we really get together and talk, never talk before. he'a a nice friend and that's it. no more than that. this is how far more we have to walk to walk out of the park..

it's very late already, then he flag cab for me and i reach home=) i nearly gave the uncle wrong money..haha...tired~

spirits..

2005-04-18T23:40:00.001+09:30

Met Rabiah and Lester and we went to carrefour. I bought lots of food, incl. cream bread and coconut, then 3 of us eat in the middle of the road, many people looking, but we don't care..haha. After that we went to the model interview thing.. the gal interviewed me and Lester. then the person thought we are an item..very funnie.. Siew Hui joined us soon after..But she is quite sick..i hope she's feeling better now.. Met Mel, then we saw Rui En shooting there..she's pretty=)

me went back to Mel's home, coz got this auntie of ours from HK is here for business.then have to visit her. We went to the Plaza hotel, saw her and then hugging session, then walk around the swimming pool..nice view, coz swissotel is just beside it.The adults went on talking,so mel and me walk around, we went to this war memorial thing, so scary...we feel like there are spirits there watching our every move..then we shouted our hopes, dreams and wishes.. i feel really good doing that!!I hope the spirits there heard it and can help me grant some, hehehe..the place there very romantic also..

Went home after midnite..very tired..

Danceworks finaLs

2005-04-16T23:55:00.000+09:30

Happy BirthdaY

ShamMir!!

Biah and me in the bus

Today is the danceworks finals, met Rabiah at 2.30p.m in Toa Payoh to search for something green to wear, but to no avail, haha..so in the end we took no. 8 bus..OMG..i swear i was having headache..maybe not used to taking bus..the stupid bus kept on jerking..huh..luckily the TV mobile got encore telecasts of NKF show, so i watched it, coz wanna see 5566 and cyndi=) The journey took 45 minutes to Tampines Interchange..so long!!! then we went to search for something green in Tampines too!! like green scarf, headband or something, but they don't have green..ugh..it's like 4.10p.m already, and we're meeting at 4.30p.m in Expo station, so we quickly took no.38 bus. Jiang hao said he still in Aljunied, hehe..so we're early after all..Reach in front of expo at 4.35p.m, saw lots of people queueing up there. Jiang Hao called me, he say he reached the control station already..he's faster..ugh!! On the way to control stat, me and rabiah saw Daniel Ong walking near us, he smiled at us, i was like wondering who he was..then it finally strucked me, but when i turned back, he's gone..

This is the stage, very bright..

The performance was great!I love the performance from Primary skul one, the lil boys so cute!!hehe..I'm so proud of SMUDGE!!They got 2nd place!!

Results:

1st:Wack
2nd:Smudge
3rd:CJC

I love the performance by Hwa Chong JC and Woodlands Sec..they're very good!! D-Cheats from F-bodz did a very good job too!! I thought they would be in 3rd place, but overall, i love their performance!!WeLL dOne=) He didn't come today=( But it was still fun=)
Photo -taking session, haha

Annur and me

Raizan and me

Zan and Jiang Hao(both act cool here, haha)

inside MRT

Love the visor, haha
I'm dying to dance..luckily dance practice will resume next Thurday at 7p.m, haha=) can't wait!!The Model agency called Lester, they ask me and him to go there and have interview on Monday..uumm..very nervous..

Performance

2005-04-14T22:18:00.000+09:30

Today went to watch my friends, Jiang Hao, Josh, Fir, YeeShan and Zelia perform dance.Me and Rabiah find a suitable place to record the dance using Jiang Hao's phone. First is Zelia performing ballet with her 2 frens

Then it's Hip Hop..yeah!!

Me and Rabiah took pictures, then JH scare us by appearing his head in the middle..as if there's a ghost in the middle. After everything end, we went back. Zelia and YeeShan went out with their frenz.

Then me and Biah went to a park..it was very fun!!Love u lots Biah!!you're such a great friend=)The scenery there is breathtaking..

I like the way the building and the trees reflects on the calm waters..anyway, the purpose both of us came here is to play the swing..yeah, lame reason, but i love swings!!

I feel so carefree!!Met Elly after that. I really had fun today!!=)

ModeLs anyone??Haha

2005-04-11T23:48:00.000+09:30

Dreamt of going Diving last nite..i felt so carefree!!want to go diving in the future!!

Went town with Lester after that. On our way ,there's this guy suddenly chase us from behind, then he stopped us and ask:"Are both of you Models?" Me and Lest was like:"huh? nope" it turns out that he is from model agency, and he asks me and Lester to become models, something like that...Lester and me find it hilarious, coz there's alot of people there, and this guy approaches both of us, haha. Then he followed me to buy somethin..he helped me choose a pink colour one..he says it looks sweet on me.haha..he'a a great shopping mate..we end the day by going Starbucks and chill out, yeah! Goin skul to study again tomorrow!! Hope can make lots of improvement..

Swing Girls

2005-04-04T22:14:00.000+09:30

After doing project today, i met Lester and we ate in Es Teler 77..very delicious!!Fir also like to eat here, hehe=)watched "Swing Girls" in cinema. It's a funny show, we luff like hell in there, haha=) After that we took neoprints..nice..

After that we bought Magnolia ice-cream while walking, it's a rainy day, so the weather's quite cold..we look like 2 idiots eating ice-cream on a cold night. Aniway, we went to a place and Lester brought me to a secret passageway, and we end up here...This whole walkway is under Club 21, a very prestigious club.hmm..Lester like this brand..Comme Des Garcons alot.Thanks for bringing me to such a nice place lester!!
I had alot of fun today, thanks Lester!!

Happiness is...

2005-03-31T23:05:00.000+09:30

Today our first Performance.. it's a success..yeah!!Thanks to all cast members, Ross, Amreet..the make-up artist, CS..basically everyone that is involved, hehe..
Me and FaizaL

Arifah and me

Fir with make-up,haha

Me and YY

My cute dance member--Yee Shan

Zelia and me--She dance like a PRO

RaizaN--a very good dancer

His DARdar, haha--a very good listener

Our hard wOrk finally paid off..but tmr still got another performance, we will jia you!yeah, haha=)

May...

2005-03-30T11:05:00.000+09:30

May happiness float around you like clouds in the sky
May love flow in your life like water in a stream
May warmth surround you like sunshine on a perfect summer day

This is specially dedicated to my friends...I'll always be here..=) It's a prOmiSe..

Eatt

2005-03-25T23:55:00.000+09:30

TodaY is gOOd friday. Went Out with harris.Bought a skirt and tOp. Harris chOse fOr me, thanks, hehe=) DiscuSS with him abOut my problems, he gave me alot of solutions that i never think of. Thanks for being there Ris! We went to to eat supper at around 10.30p.m. We ordered Pizza, bread and Mango-vannila ice cream waffle, i Love vanilla ice-cream..YummY-->the waffle is Love shape, i imagine if i eat that with a special one...surely very romantic..hehe..-->Harris drinking...-->tOOk this outside the restaurant.Nice ??the background wall shows a giant strawberry, hehe

BallOOnS

2005-03-24T23:50:00.000+09:30

Rabiah gave hers to me, so i have to bring 4 balloons home.woah, so much..the balloons very big, so i look like an idiot 17 yr-old gal holding 4 big balloons.-->People lookin at me on my way hOme, but who careS? I find it hilariOus... Reached home, surprisingly, 1 of my brothers haven't sleep, so i gave it to him. he's happy.hehe, i'm such a nice sis.Just sOme ballOOns can make them happy. I dun mind being mOcked at on the streetsAniway, i'm happy today..hihi=) wiSh everyone happy tOO!!

StarCruise Virgo

2005-03-13T10:26:00.000+09:30

i went to cruise Virgo on 13-16 march..hehe=) will be updating bout my journey there soon...cLick HeRe...VirGo cruiSe to see my photos..i'll write more when i'm not busy=)

2005-03-03T23:41:00.000+09:30

went to meet Harris to watch Hitch in cinema. the movie was very funny..i like Will Smith a lot=) we ate in pastamania..
-->harris and me..(he was irritated when i took this pic, coz he was busy eating,i dun care,haha..)after that meet Elly and CharLes...it was tiring, but fun__*

My bOO LyRicS

2005-03-03T08:48:00.000+09:30

My bOo LyRiCs

Usher:
There's always that one person
that will always have your heart
You never see it coming cause
you're blinded from the start
Know that you're that one for me,
it's clear for everyone to see
Ooh baby, you will always be my boo

Jermaine Depri
I don't know about y'all
but I know about us and uhh
it's the only way we know how to rock (repeat)

Usher Verse
Do you remember girl, who was
the one who gave you your first kiss
Cause I remember girl who was the one
who said put your lips like this
Even before all the fame and people screaming your name
Girl I was there and you were my baby

Chorus 1:Usher
It started when we were younger and you were mine (my boo)
Now another brothers' taken over but its'
still in your eyes (my boo)
Even though we use to argue it's alright
(it's alright girl, that's okay)
And if we haven't seen each other in a while,
but you will always be my boo

Chorus 2: Beyonce
I loved you when we were younger you were mine
And when I see from time to time I still feel like,
And if I see you no matter how I try to hide
And even though there's another man who's in my life, you will always be my boo

Beyonce Verse
Yes I remember boy, cause after we
kissed i can only think about ur lips
Yes I remember boy,
the moment i knew u're the one i feels my life with
Even before all the fame and people screaming your name
Boy I was there and you were my baby

Chorus 1: Usher
It started when we were younger and you were mine (my boo)
Now another brothers' taken over but its'
still in your eyes (my boo)
Even though we use to argue it's alright
(it's alright girl, that's okay)
And if we haven't seen each other in a while,
but you will always be my boo

Chorus 2: Beyonce
It started when we were younger and you were mine (my boo)
And see from time from time i still feel like(my boo)
See no matter how i try to hide
(it's alright now, it's okay)
even though there's another man in my life
you will always be my boo

Bridge
My ooh my ohh my ohh my ohh my boo (repeat)

Usher
It started when we were younger and you were mine (my boo)
Now another brothers' taken over but its'
still in your eyes (my boo)
Even though we use to argue it's alright
(it's alright, it's okay)
And if we haven't seen each other in a while,
but you will always be my boo

yippie

2005-02-28T23:33:00.000+09:30

Mum bought for me a new Fujitsu LapTop today.. I'm very happY=))

happy=D

2005-02-24T20:13:00.000+09:30

2 Days To DanceWorKs

I'm like in a dreamland. . .never wanna wake up. . .

valentine hehe

2005-02-15T17:56:00.000+09:30

Yesterday i had so much fun!! It is one of the happiest day in my life. Yee Shan, thanks for offering me ur jacket when i'm cold even though u felt cold too! The blue HP pouch that you gave me is soo cute, i really love it=D Your famous amos cookies are yummy too! Nas, thanks for the hand made valentine's day card and chocolates! Really appreciate it=) Zong Yan, thanks for your expensive chocolate and for bringing digital camera. . Fir, Thanks for the fluffy pink bear that you gave me!!! WoW, I really love it=) The CD that you specially burn for me really touched me!! "My bOO" was 1st on the track=)What shocked me most is when you suddenly bought blue rose for me on the street!WOW! So sweet of youuu... Thanks a lot!! Blue roses are my favourites.

_*I hate it when people say sorry without meaning it*_
_*I hate it when people make empty promises*_

valentine's

2005-02-14T10:59:00.000+09:30

HapPy VaLentiNe's DaY! !

Love is definitely in the air today! ! Gonna go out and have fun today! Thank u for ur valentine's gift! really appreciate it=)

yeahh

2005-01-27T23:15:00.000+09:30

Today the junior dance got performance.
On the way there, Jiang hao and me talks about lots of personal things..
It's interesting to open up to him.He also help me with sumting today..
thanks a lot wor=D

When we reach there, we got shocked, coz the place is very big, thousands
of chairs there(i'm not exaggerating)
After that, we were served dinner by them..the fried rice was very delicious..
the make-up artist did a very great job!! thanks!!! and thanks Dillah and Zahidah for plaiting my hair..it looks really nice=D The performance was ok..Jiang Hao missed his 1st dance steps, but for the 2nd dance, he was good, xcept this time, Fir miss his..This is Zelia's last performance.. very sad leh...hiks=( but i hope we can still contact each other..love her lots..all dance members,, Love u Guys Loads=)

2005-01-25T11:32:00.000+09:30

photos

2005-01-12T02:17:00.000+09:30

recent photos-----> harris and me during christmas...behind us is the x-tra big christmas tree.
--Wishing starzzz...
-->So big...wow!!
-->bleahz=P
-->Xinru and me
-->sus and me in my balcony
-->playful Ade and me
-->mee=P
--> my legs at my pond..lame pic, but quite unique..hehe
--> got fishes inside my pond..
--> nothing to do..so take pond pic again..
-->taken from the balcony
-->Griselda and me
-->so act cute..haiz..
-->
--> Angela(orange scarf with pink pants) during her concert..very blur rite?? coz she's umm.. running..

photo

2004-12-21T21:21:00.002+09:30

Today our whole family go photo studio "cantik" and have our family photo..very fun actually..i'm so blessed to have my family=D

2004-12-19T22:58:00.001+09:30

Todae we go to temple.mum didn't follow us coz she gonna be the examiner for piano, organ and keyboard exam. a gal named Fitri who sat beside me start talking to me. After the whole prayer's over, she came towards me again with 3 guys, and she said:"Han, they have been eyeing u for sometime.." I smiled to them and they intro themself..i forgot their names, but 1 guy name Hanson came towards me individually, so we kinda talk. He works in computer industry and he's a wedding planner..he started asking my age. he's 25..when he knows i'm 17,he said:"8 years difference..wow.. good!!"haha..he's quite a funny guy actually..We xchange contact numbers.

Father came and fetch us and we went to a wedding invitation in the afternoon. the food's nice, the place's nice too!

Went to Grandma's house after that..there quite boring...have to see all my aunts and uncles and i feel very uncomfie, coz long time neva see them..luckily we left soon to fetch mum.

At nite, we went to another invitation in Four Seasons Hotel Jakarta. the ballroom is very big..the new couple got held a contest for gals 17 and above..see who can catch the flowers that they throw, then the person get an expensive jewellery..i took part, but didn't get it..but it's still fun anywae..They groom is loaded..coz the decoration is filled with fresh flowers like roses, and fruits such as grapes hanging with the flowers....I receive 3 roses from the guys there..wow..sooo nice and romantic..

smoothing!

2004-12-15T21:01:00.000+09:30

Todae mum bring me to saloon for hair smoothing. it took about 4hours..my hair becomes very soft..and the xpert there cut my fringe..now i got fringe le..yeah!!but dunno whether looks nice on me or not..-->the lips there very xtra hor...